Back to Work…

Well, it has been awhile.  Missed you guys!  I hate when I get into those 'flatline type – I can't write' modes.  Despite the writer's block, things have been quite amazing.  I am beginning to feel a sense of balance in my life and I believe going back to work has a lot to do with it.  I told my doctor that I wanted to head back part-time and he supported my decision to do so.  Upon returning I was not sure what to expect, so I just went with it when my boss took me around and reintroduced me to my fellow co-workers.  I was nearly in tears a couple of times as certain people were 'extra' happy to see me and I thought it was so kind.  I felt really special seeing everyone again. 

Many people thought I was away on a Temporary Assignment at another ministry, but I let them know the truth and when people look at me with puppy dog eyes I am quick to tell them that 'really, it is okay…it could be worse.'  I am not downplaying that I was really sick for quite some time, but the worst feels behind me and I don't harbour ill feelings about my experience.  Nothing is perfect, I still experience strange episodes where my eyes get all fuzzy and social awkwardness can feel overbearing or I have 4 hours sleep.  I have yet to experience anything negative at work because I am slowly coping and I am incrementally working towards coming back into a full time position. 

I feel like I now have some structure in my life which helps me feel more balanced in many respects.  I am a lucky girl and I am grateful for the people in my life including all my friends at work, you are so valued and I am thankful for your kindness.