Well, it has been awhile. Missed you guys! I hate when I get into those 'flatline type – I can't write' modes. Despite the writer's block, things have been quite amazing. I am beginning to feel a sense of balance in my life and I believe going back to work has a lot to do with it. I told my doctor that I wanted to head back part-time and he supported my decision to do so. Upon returning I was not sure what to expect, so I just went with it when my boss took me around and reintroduced me to my fellow co-workers. I was nearly in tears a couple of times as certain people were 'extra' happy to see me and I thought it was so kind. I felt really special seeing everyone again.
Many people thought I was away on a Temporary Assignment at another ministry, but I let them know the truth and when people look at me with puppy dog eyes I am quick to tell them that 'really, it is okay…it could be worse.' I am not downplaying that I was really sick for quite some time, but the worst feels behind me and I don't harbour ill feelings about my experience. Nothing is perfect, I still experience strange episodes where my eyes get all fuzzy and social awkwardness can feel overbearing or I have 4 hours sleep. I have yet to experience anything negative at work because I am slowly coping and I am incrementally working towards coming back into a full time position.
I feel like I now have some structure in my life which helps me feel more balanced in many respects. I am a lucky girl and I am grateful for the people in my life including all my friends at work, you are so valued and I am thankful for your kindness.